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6. Obsession
My want - my need - for the other man is beyond words. I can't describe the feeling I get when I'm not around him. There is something missing when he's gone, and I can't replace it with any possession of any sort. I tried to convince myself otherwise, but soon enough I'd find myself not sleeping until he had returned from a solo mission, or even out to the kitchen.
I try to distract myself from my innermost desires, but he always seems to find his way into my mind once again. I even resorted to desperately trying to talk to the others, though it's most definitely not something I normally do, simply to get my mind off of him. All in vain. I'm afraid, because when he walks into the room, I can't help but watch him the entire time.
Even during our missions together - sometimes in the midst of battling opponents - I watch him from the corner of my eye. At first, I would try to tell myself that I was looking out for him and watching for his safety, but over time it proved pointless. One time he did notice my longer-than-necessary stares, and I brushed it off, saying I was try to prevent him from being killed. He let it go, but I fear that he will become suspicious in the future if he catches me again.
But I want him to notice. I want him to think of me the way I think of him. Maybe then we can try and push aside the differences that we face with each other and cooperate enough to a tolerable degree. Maybe then, I can tame this fascination for him and control myself better.
But that's only maybe.
My want - my need - for the other man is beyond words. I can't describe the feeling I get when I'm not around him. There is something missing when he's gone, and I can't replace it with any possession of any sort. I tried to convince myself otherwise, but soon enough I'd find myself not sleeping until he had returned from a solo mission, or even out to the kitchen.
I try to distract myself from my innermost desires, but he always seems to find his way into my mind once again. I even resorted to desperately trying to talk to the others, though it's most definitely not something I normally do, simply to get my mind off of him. All in vain. I'm afraid, because when he walks into the room, I can't help but watch him the entire time.
Even during our missions together - sometimes in the midst of battling opponents - I watch him from the corner of my eye. At first, I would try to tell myself that I was looking out for him and watching for his safety, but over time it proved pointless. One time he did notice my longer-than-necessary stares, and I brushed it off, saying I was try to prevent him from being killed. He let it go, but I fear that he will become suspicious in the future if he catches me again.
But I want him to notice. I want him to think of me the way I think of him. Maybe then we can try and push aside the differences that we face with each other and cooperate enough to a tolerable degree. Maybe then, I can tame this fascination for him and control myself better.
But that's only maybe.
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I have to be honest, I thought this one would be easier.
I mean, the ideas were simple enough, but writing it out was a bit of an issue. I don't know why. Probably because I haven't written in a while...
BUT! Anyway.... I think this is one of those "choose the POV" fics again... I love writing these, they're really fun (though you have to choose wording carefully or you can give it away in one sentence! D: )
Also, this was inspired my the lovely
, who is a fantastic writer as well - I really enjoyed talking to her again... I miss you! D:
Theme 7 is well on it's way! This one will actually be a story-style, not this 300 word crap. x)
I listened to Muse - Undisclosed Desires and Innerpartysystem - Obsession while writing this. (<- I think I'm going to start adding what I was listening to when I write - it might help you all if your stuck with writing, like I am all the time.
)
Hidan and Kakuzu belong to:
I mean, the ideas were simple enough, but writing it out was a bit of an issue. I don't know why. Probably because I haven't written in a while...
BUT! Anyway.... I think this is one of those "choose the POV" fics again... I love writing these, they're really fun (though you have to choose wording carefully or you can give it away in one sentence! D: )
Also, this was inspired my the lovely
, who is a fantastic writer as well - I really enjoyed talking to her again... I miss you! D:Theme 7 is well on it's way! This one will actually be a story-style, not this 300 word crap. x)
I listened to Muse - Undisclosed Desires and Innerpartysystem - Obsession while writing this. (<- I think I'm going to start adding what I was listening to when I write - it might help you all if your stuck with writing, like I am all the time.
)Hidan and Kakuzu belong to:
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Oh my goodness! This is such an instant fav, I can't even tell you! 
And this is far from being crap, it is 300 carefully chosen and lovely arranged words that made me smile. As I said, I love these mini-moments and trains-of-thoughts to no end and this one is really adorable!
And thank you soooo much! It means a lot to me that you consider me a good writer, this makes me really happy!
Your story has just brightened up my day (<- and I'm not sure if I can say it this way, but I'll write it anyways, since I'm too tired to look it up properly...
), which didn't start that well. :/
I can imagine both of them thinking this, so this time, I won't say it's from Kakuzu's or Hidan's POV, because I can't really tell.
Somehow I think it is visible between the lines that you've listened to Muse while writing this. I can't tell exactly why, but somehow the structure of some sentences and the vocabulary made me think so. But don't worry, it is not too much, your own fabulous style is still more present! And Muse is great, by the way.
I usually think that it is easier to write fics and the is sit there like 'Aaaaaallright.... What did I want to say?'. Maybe I should start plotting before I write... would be more professional.
Anyhow... I really, really LOVE this fic and I hope that you'll keep on writing stuff like this that warms my heart and cheers me up every time I read it. Thank you a lot!
And this is far from being crap, it is 300 carefully chosen and lovely arranged words that made me smile. As I said, I love these mini-moments and trains-of-thoughts to no end and this one is really adorable!
And thank you soooo much! It means a lot to me that you consider me a good writer, this makes me really happy!
Your story has just brightened up my day (<- and I'm not sure if I can say it this way, but I'll write it anyways, since I'm too tired to look it up properly...
), which didn't start that well. :/I can imagine both of them thinking this, so this time, I won't say it's from Kakuzu's or Hidan's POV, because I can't really tell.
Somehow I think it is visible between the lines that you've listened to Muse while writing this. I can't tell exactly why, but somehow the structure of some sentences and the vocabulary made me think so. But don't worry, it is not too much, your own fabulous style is still more present! And Muse is great, by the way.
I usually think that it is easier to write fics and the is sit there like 'Aaaaaallright.... What did I want to say?'. Maybe I should start plotting before I write... would be more professional.
Anyhow... I really, really LOVE this fic and I hope that you'll keep on writing stuff like this that warms my heart and cheers me up every time I read it. Thank you a lot!